verses referred are from song of Salomon chapter 5
you know the verses were it stand about returning to the first love?
We need that passionate love for God,
the deep desire about always being together, being close –
always needing more of His presence –
that we seek Him till we find Him, that we’ll do anything, just to be with Him.
We read the Bible as never before, because we hope to hear His voice.
We pray like never before, because we long to hear Him speak to us!
We NEED God and we’ll do anything, anything!
It is like that at first, when we are born again-
but then reality and every day life set in and slowly get a hold on us…
our desire to be with Him doesn’t burn that strong within us anymore.
We have matured and believe we have become stronger Christians, we can manage more on our own, at least we live our days that way.
We do serve Him with our lives, don’t we?
Don’t come here and say we’re not serving God!
because we are in ministry, we do share a word with others in between,
we do read some times, and pray a little as the day passes by…
We still say we’ll do anything… but that many times aren’t true…
how we use our days shows that clearly…
it is a lie we use to feel comfortable with how we live our lives,
with the distance we have between us and God,
an excuse to explain why we don’t use more time alone with God,
we justify us selves by saying
«I am busy managing life, to succeed in a greater way and with serving you God»
2 I slept but my heart was awake.
Listen! My lover is knocking:
«Open to me, my sister, my darling,
my dove, my flawless one.
My head is drenched with dew,
my hair with the dampness of the night.»
God has a jealous love for His children, His beloved –
His heart burns after spending time with us,
alone, just us, to be, be us
Many times when our days are over we are tired,
we have done a lot of needed things, we’ve worked, been at school & activities,
we have been in church, doing ministry,
we have been together with our loved ones,
we have helped them out, cared for them and their needs…
we are drained for strength and feel like resting.
We don’t think about going aside to be alone with God,
we just feel like peace, quietness and SLEEP!
How many times do we take the evening-watch?
or the night-watch for that sake?
when God comes in the evening, urging us to come aside with Him…
when He wakes us up during night, pleading us to come aside to be with Him…
3 I have taken off my robe-
must I put it on again?
I have washed my feet-
must I soil them again?
Many times we just complain about being to tired,
we have done so many things, we are entitled to be tired,
we are only humans and we do need rest, don’t we?
We don’t want to get out of bed and get dressed,
we don’t want to give up sleep to be alone with God.
Before we did everything just to hear Him say a word to us,
we spent time reading the Bible, we prayed, we were seeking Him all the time-
and now, He is speaking out loud to us, asking us to come aside to be alone
and we choose to not listen, we actually pretend we don’t hear Him…
5 I arose to open for my lover,
and my hands dripped with myrrh,
my fingers with flowing myrrh,
on the handles of the lock.
I opened for my lover,
but my lover had left; he was gone.
My heart sank at his departure.
I looked for him but did not find him.
I called him but he did not answer.
but then when we have rested a little, we feel ready for God, but…
what do we find when we say
«now I am here, now I feel up to spending time together»…
He isn’t there as He was earlier…
No, I didn’t say that He completely left us, because He doesn’t leave us –
but when God urge us to come aside, we need to listen and obey –
those times are special moments,
He comes seeking us because He want to be with us – and we don’t have time?
We excuse us selves with to busy, to tired, to something…
not time to spend time with the one we say we love the most,
need the most and the one we say we’ll do anything to be with…
will we do anything?
7 The watchmen found me
as they made their rounds in the city.
They beat me, they bruised me;
they took away my cloak,
those watchmen of the walls!
ever felt hurt by this world?
defeated by the devil?
brokenhearted from peoples words and action against you?
that you can’t overcome?
Some times it is because we haven’t spent time with God… I don’t say always,
we do live in a world that’s under evil and times are getting darker and tougher,
but that should make us need and seek to be alone with God even more…
The disciples walked with Jesus and they saw Him preforming miracles,
they saw Him casting out demons, wake people up from the dead…
but when they came to Jesus with a question,
they didn’t ask;how to preach a good sermon,
nor how to cast out demons or how to show love-
they asked: Teach us how to pray!
They had walked with Jesus for awhile, they knew how He lived His life,
and there has to be something special hidden in their question…
they had many times seen how Jesus went aside to be with His Father,
they had seen the power of prayer work in His life,
they knew that «the secret» to what He was and did
was found in and through His time with God,
when He went aside to be alone and pray
Praying is not only interceding for others,
if that is the only type of prayer you do, you will become tired fast,
interceding for others, churches, cities and countries are hard work,
because we stand in the gap for others, we fight for others.
Praying is more than that,
prayer is also communion with God
My favorite times are in the evenings,
(I don’t say all my evenings are like this, sometimes I have my fights,
or many «to-do’s» or I’m just to «busy» minding my own things)
when things are finally quiet and I can sit down and say;
«oh God… I love you!»
and then I many times don’t say more in a few minutes,
I just wait, wait till His presence is there,
and then we are us, then we can be together, be close,
and in between I tell Him in a tender loving way that I love Him,
we share my day (some times I have to repent), I ask what’s on His heart…
tell Him that I need Him, that He is the best ever, and many other «sweet things»,
my God, the lover of my soul and I are together again
We need to be in His presence, we need to be alone with God
we need to awaken the first love again, we need God
We need to seek His face, to be in His presence,
because we love Him more than anything or anyone
when we’ve been with Him, we are ready to go out and meet the world,
then we have something to give the world,
because we’ve been with Him, He has filled our hearts and souls
«As the deer pants for streams of water,
so my soul pants for you, O God.»
my soul cries out for the Lord ~ because; as our body dies without water ~
my soul dies without God!!!
I will be here less in days and time to come,
because I want and need to go aside with God, to be more alone with Him.
I need that so I can come back and have something to give others.
Jesus only did and said as He saw His Father did, I want that too…
I don’t have the need for sharing myself, I long to share more of God,
and to be able to so, I need time alone with God.